Here we are smack dab in the middle of this pandemic! Nobody asked for this, nobody saw the effects it would have on our country and our personal sense of safety. It feels like we are in a epidemic of fear and loathing (sorry HS Thompson). Everyone is reacting in the ways they can and the range of emotions seem to be getting more extreme. Reactionary citizens yelling and demanding that we put us all in harm’s way. Cautionary citizens taking another step back and listening to the scientific community. I am not here to support one or other side but I think that puts each of us in the middle, trying to make decisions for ourselves and our families with potentially serious consequence. How do we make sense of this. How do we decide what is best. How do we sit with this chaos going on around us and have some comfort that we are making the right decisions.
I am learning more and more, again and again that we as human beings have the capacity for great suffering and perseverance. My psychotherapy practice model has shifted more and more to mindfulness and recognizing the inherent power we each have. The task is to find a way to tap that power, to release the part of ourselves that can and does heal our hearts and our minds. Our essence, our spirit, our soul are those parts of ourselves that can tap into that power that I call God. There are many names and flavors of God but the essence is that it exists in creation, renewal and growth. It pushes us to places that we do not go ourselves regularly and only under duress. We are in the “dark night of the soul” at this moment and have little to do but sit quietly in the darkness, meditate, pray, become mindful of this dark space. Until, we begin to feel some presence, some movement, some lifting of the darkness and can have a reunion with the light. The light of change, the light of hope, the light of a new day so that we may slowly become aware of what was hidden by the darkness. This light will be different than before the darkness because we will always remember how it felt sitting in the darkness. I hope that each of us are willing to sit in the darkness and wait until the darkness lifts and we can again move back into the world and into our community. But until then in the immortal words of Bill Withers “ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone!”